A Better Person: A Novel by Matt Metzler
6" x 9" professionally printed paperback book, 227 pg. As of 2017, all copies come with: a new book jacket, handmade from colored cardstock paper and signed by the author; and a new, separately bound essay, titled "For Better or Worse: Reflecting on A Better Person, My Body, and Karl Ove Knausgaard," also by Matt Metzler.
A Better Person is a semi-autobiographical novel about an especially difficult six- or seven-month period of time during college; in a similar vein to Stephen Chbosky’s The Perks of Being a Wallflower, it’s a deeply personal narrative that grapples with questions about finding home, unrequited affection in friendships and relationships, depression and anxiety, and the increasing pressures of early adulthood. A Better Person was funded by a successful Kickstarter campaign in June 2014, and printed by Lulu; it features a cover illustration by Dan Brenton.
"A shift had occurred in the universe. It was unprecedented. My arms were no longer useless. My arms were flailing in pursuit of what I knew to be within my reach, at last. And for the next three years, even after he’d turned away from me, even after we’d stopped speaking for months at a time, I never lost sight of him. How could I? He was my gold standard, and if I couldn’t have him, I was convinced that I’d never have anything; that the universe would shift back to the way it had always been, and I would return to a pair of dead arms. To nothing.”